I am being extremely emotional lately.
I know my words hurt you. I just couldn't control.
I apologize !
I need to calm myself down, I need to get out from all these pressure !
I am SUFFOCATING !
Let me gain myself back ! I am losing my mind !
Yet, I don't want to promise anything or make any commitment ...
Give me TIME pls ...
Oh gosh ! What am I talking about ? I am going mad ...

这个月也有一单, 印度同事 Engineer 娶老婆 ... 下月又有老朋友娶老婆 ... 接下来的几个月后, 又有两位同事结婚, 逃不过了 ... 还要当 '姐妹' ...
钱包也要挨饿了 ...